TIME AND SPACE

At some time, you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life.

Time and distance.

Chances.

Haha. If you're a person who wanted to help someone,  but you think you're impossible to be heard, kailangan mo LAKASAN YUNG LOOB MO. Don't hide yourself. Wag mo itago kung ano yung nasa isip mo. Kung sabihin nilang "ANG DAMI MONG ALAM. PA-ADVICE ADVICE KA PA." eh ano ngayon? Tumutulong ka lang. Kase importante sila sayo.

SINULAT KO Yung paragraph na yan para din sakin. Nakakalimutan ko kase minsan yung purpose ko kapag medyo naiinsulto ako.

Remind yourself that it's okay not to be PERFECT.


Maraming tao ngayon na nakapaligid sakin, namomroblema or humihingi ng opinions ko kung ano gagawin nila. I'm younger than them pero may mga experiences na ako sa mga topics na pinapa-advice nila. Next time promise, di na ako magmamarunong. And sorry kung ganun talaga ako. SOBRANG OVER-PROTECTIVE ko lang kase talaga sa mga kaibigan ko. And next time, I won't be the ADVISER. I will be the FRIEND you will need.

BESPREN :)

Maka-AYIEEE walang katapusan hahaa :))) Eh sa ganito kami ng bespren ko. Ay. Happy Chinese New Year! Sorry na nga pala kung di pa ako nakakapagpaalam sayo na pinost ko to :( SORRRRRRYYY

PENGYOU :)

25 caps.lolwhy.

Yo nigga. HAHA dejk lang. Hi pare.

Alam mo, madalas kapag nabobore ako, dahil yun sa absence mo. Naririnig mo man na SOBRANG LAKAS ng tawa ko kapag di kita kasama, at lumalapit na sa akin yung mga kaibigan natin kapag nawawala ka, haha, syempre, ikaw pa rin yung bespren ko. Layasan man nila ako, ipagtabuyan man nila ako, iwanan man nila ako ng paulit-ulit, alam ko, may isang taong babalik at lalapit sakin. Sabi mo mag-ingat ako at baka mauntog na naman ako tapos makalimutan kita. HELLO. Seryoso pre, neber. Ikaw? Makakakalimutan ko? Eh halos nga araw-araw ikaw kasama ko, walang break, walang preno. And you MAKE MY DAYS COMPLETE. haha mais. :)) Motivation bro. Magsisipag na ako. Kahit may mga oras na mejo tinatamad ako. May mga oras na naghihintayan lang tayo ng topic. May mga oras na sobrang nagkakatampuhan. May mga oras na sa sobrang saya natin nakakalimutan natin na may mga tao pa sa paligid natin. And we're only talking to ourselves. Takaw mo paren. HAHA. Kinain mo na lahat ng atensyon ko :))))))  WOOO BUMABANAT AKO NA NAMAN. LUH. Anyways, sana, continue to smile carelessly. Aylabyo nigga. POREBERANDEBER. AMEN.

One Direction :)

The FREEDOM TO MOVE, to SPEAK, to LAUGH, to RUN, without even thinking of consequences.

It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.

Siguro nga, age really does matter. Para sa mga batang katulad ko, there should always be a perfect timing. Lahat nagkakamali, it's all about thinking of the possibilities and learning what exactly you did wrong. Ma-pride tayong mga tao. Sometimes, we need to step down. Hindi lahat ng tao, mabait. Iba-iba tayo. May mga mayayabang, matatalino, may itsura/pogi/maganda, may naturally talented. At hinding hindi lahat ng to mapapasayo. Kase ginawa ang tao, hindi para maging perpekto. 

Ngayon, kung may mga taong masarap kasama, at alam niyong mahirap na lagyan ng gap yung samahan niyo, SPACE is UNWANTED. Mahirap. Napakahirap. Sabi nila, hindi lahat ng mag-best friend, kailangan lagi magkasama. Nasanay kami, and sabihin na nating IBA yung oras na nabibigay namin sa isa't isa talaga. Kasi dun kami komportable. Walang masama sa ginagawa namin. Hindi kami. HINDING HINDI KAMI MAGKAKARELASYON LALO NA ALAM NAMIN YUNG LIMITATIONS. At bata pa kami. Studies, importante yan. Kaya sana, don't lose trust in us. Sa mga taong naniwala samin dati, please, wag na kayong maniwala sa ibang taong nagkakalat ng issues. We're happy and we know na sa happiness namin, walang masamang epekto, at alam namin na kakayanin namin. 

Para naman sa bespren kong namomroblema kagabi,

Photos fade, people change, but you and I, we're going to be the same. Wag mo na saluhin lahat ng problema. Kung inaakala mo na pinapagalitan ako or sinasabihan ako dahil nga lagi kita kasama, at ako lang talaga yung sinasabihan, wag ganun. Hindi ikaw yung dahilan. Sorry na rin kung nadadamay ka. Isa pa, raise your grades ng konti pa. Kaya mo yan. It's your attitude and point of view, na minamahal namin. Smile pare. :)

At para kay Dreff,

SOMETIMES, you need to let your pride down. Sometimes, you need to go outside, get some air, and remind yourself who you are, and where you want to be. Stop making resolutions and star doing something more valuable. Everything that enters your ears, affect your attitude. Be happy pare. Wag mo intindihin yung iba. And we're proud of what you've achieved. Salamat.

CONGRATS NGA PALA FRESHMEN!

PARANOIA and EUPHORIA

this state of paranoia

HAHA. weh. WALANG KWENTANG FAISU. :)) Nagpaka-vain ba naman sa harap ng Camera? Pero di ko pinagsisihan yang pagkuha ng CLIP na yan. Kase, yan ung time before putulan yung bangs kowszx. :( Sobrang saya ko nung una, tapos wala naaaa. 

January 13, 2012 [last night. the time to say goodbye]

:) Kagabi, umiyak na naman tayo. Lagi na lang ganun? Pagmalapit 17, umiiyak tayo? :)) haha. Nung una, habang naglalakad tayo sa school, sinasabi mo, "Parang ayaw ko na sabihin yun. Kahit masaya." sabi mo, may 2% na ayaw mong sabihin yung words na yun. Kasi simula nung nagsabihan tayo, marami nang situations na lumala, kumalat. Naasar ka, so parang gusto mo mag-give up. Pero di mo magawa. Iniisip mo, sinasabi mo KAYA MO, pero nung sinabi mo ulit sakin na ayaw mo na talaga, at ititigil na natin yung mga iniisip natin for the future, tumahimik ako. May sakit ako nun, namumutla pa nga ako, tapos bigla na lang ako tumamlay no? Ang galing mo eh. Nahulaan mo kaagad. Sabi mo, "Anong problema..sabihin mo.. kilala pa rin kita.." Di kita sinasagot. Sabi ko lang, inaantok ako, pagod, kung ano ano pa. Bakit ba? Kahit naman kasi layuan mo ako, mang-aasar pa rin sila. Hindi natin kailangang mag-adjust para lang matigil sila. Kase nasa kanila na yun kung mapapagod sila. Mang-asar sila, and so? Anong epekto nun sa kin? Anong epekto sayo? Meron ba? Bukod sa naiinis ka? Walang magandang maidudulot yun. So kung lalayuan mo ako para lang di tayo matukso, lalapitan pa rin kita. Determined ako. KUNG ITATANONG MO BAKIT, ISA LANG SAGOT KO.

"KASI NAHANAP KO NA, YUNG TRUE FRIEND KO. ONE AND ONLY TRUE FRIEND."


Sabi nga sa Perfect Two:


You can be the hero
And I can be your sidekick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
Don't know if I could ever be without you 
'Cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see that we're all we need
You know that I'll never doubt you
And you know that I think about you
And you know I can't live without you
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while

Without you, nothing feels as good. it’s like i’m missing some happy part of me. every time you smile, my heart smiles too.Dati, iniisip ko, sabi kasi nila, "Someday you'll meet someone who will change your life completely." mukhang nakilala ko na kayo. :)  namimiss ko yung mga kulitan natin sa INDEP. Pasakit tayo sa ibang teachers. Pero in the end, mahal pa rin natin sila. :)

When I first met you, I truly didn't plan to become friends with you. But then, my expectations were asdfghjkl;. They errored. And I'm happy that my expectation failed. And because of that, you're still my bespren/

Jan.13,2012

Friday the 13^th.

Malas daw ang Friday the 13th? We make our own luck. We know how we'll live even if A BAD LUCK COMES. Bakit? Kapag ba na-bad luck ka, mamamatay ka? Physically, hindi masama ang malasin. Pero masakit mentally and socially. 

“People come in our lives as blessings, and some of them met us as lessons.”

Kanina lang, na-realize ko kung bakit mahalaga ang BEST FRIEND. Pero kasi, kaya nga best friend eh. Para kayong DALAWA nagtutulungan. Hindi ung isa lang yung nagpapakahirap para tulungan ka. 

Sa mga tao,

Wag niyo po sanang kalimutang pagkatiwalaan yung mga kaibigan niyo, lalong lalo na yung bespren niyo. Hindi masamang maniwala sa tao, basta alam mong magagawa mong bumangon after the rain or storm.

Cheerdance :D

HAHA. ANG AGA AGA NAGBABLOG AKO :) Panibhasa walang lessons ngayon. Shocks. Sakit katawan :) Relate kami lahat pero enjoy naman kasi kasama namin si Sir Jeff. Isa pa, ayaw na naming pinahihirapan si sir kaya gagawin ko na lang kung ano kaya ko PURSIGIDO AKO EH :)) 

Tsaka, pawala ng stress si Jeyeeeel. Kahit na lagi kaming naaasar kila Mallen, oks lang, hindi naman kase masyado nakakainsulto. Tanggap ko :)) hahaha dejoke lang. Pero nakakadisturb din paminsan. Haay. walang magawa kundi tumawa na lang. Oh cia. 5:21 A.M pa lang pala. Sige na, I will make preparations hahaha charot! :D

Hi solusyon :)

"You don't know what to believe anymore. You know that fairy tales never come true, but you know that you're not asking for a Prince Charming to come and save you from a fearless dragon."

Lolpre. Haha. Masaya na ulit ako. Kasi wala tayong tinatagong kahit ano. At hindi naman tayo in a relationship.  GUMAAN talaga loob ko. Salamat din kay Angel :)

Eto yung story na ginawa niya :D Kaya salamat talaga.

Losing a friend was never easy. As you watch your friend walk away, you feel like you're the worst person in the world. Seeing her back facing you for the first time, you feel like there are millions of people trying to keep the two of you from each other. There were suddenly lots of people in front of you and you can't see her back anymore.

You feel alone. There are probably two dozens of students in the corridor, but you feel isolated from them. It's as if you're in a dark room, all alone, and everything you see is from a large television in front of you. You want to go inside it, because you feel that if you did, you would be entering her world again. You would once again see her beautiful smile and she would laugh with you, and you would feel like the funniest person in the world, because you got her to laugh.

You feel like crying. Your heart is sinking and sinking into a dark abyss you never knew existed within you and you feel that, eventually, it will come in contact with the ground and break into a million pieces, and you would see your memories with her in those pieces. Except it doesn't happen. You're just standing there, staring at where she once was and feeling like crying.

You feel like the most unappreciative jerk in the whole world. You want to run up to her and tell her how precious she is to you and how much she changed your life, but you can't. You stand there, thinking about your happy memories, contemplating whether to cry or not.

You start walking. You know that if you cry, your friends will ask why and you will probably cry more, remembering the reason why the two of you can't be friends anymore.

You know it isn't fair. You remember the time when she told you, "Life isn't fair," because you complained about why the line for the Howalon Shop was so long and when you get to the front of the line, all the Large Size Howalons would probably be bought already and you would probably settle for the smaller ones, except you can't buy many of them, because Howalon these days are terribly overpriced.

You walk down the stairs, each step reminding you how much of an idiot you are and how much you miss her already. You know that even if you start sprinting off to find her, she would probably be home already. You chide yourself about why you wasted so much time standing there looking like a guinea pig* when you could have ran to her and told her how much she means to you.

You have just lost your best friend. The thought finally sinks in on her brain and it starts sending lots of stimuli to your eyes.

You start to feel the tears flowing from your eyes and wetting your uniform. You don't know what to do anymore. When you go down, nobody would be there to tell you that you look ugly when you're crying. Nobody would be there to take you into her arms and tell you that you're such a baka for crying over something trivial—it wasn't trivial of course to you.

You feel that by taking another step, you're letting your feelings overweigh you and take over your whole body. You couldn't feel it, but you're swearing that your pituitary gland is acting like crazy right now.

You feel like the burdens of the whole world have been mounted on your shoulders—and you're shoulders have never been very strong. You haven't reached the bottom of the stairs when you collapse on a step and start crying like crazy. There were less people now and most of them thought twice before carefully passing beside you.

You want to undo everything—to turn back time and replay all the wonderful memories you've spent together. You remember her comforting you when you've been rejected and her telling you that there will be other guys, guys who will take care of you and cherish you. But your mind isn't set on guys now. You would give up any guy you liked just to talk to her again.

A vein in your heart is insisting that she is still there, waiting for you in the bottom of the stairs, even though every other body part of yours is objecting. You don't know what to believe anymore. You know that fairy tales never come true, but you know that you're not asking for a Prince Charming to come and save you from a fearless dragon.

You're asking for your best friend to turn around and scold you for blocking the stairway.

*click* *click* *CLICK* :)

January 6, 2012

「一人じゃないよ」I'm not alone. 


I'm not really stating everything that "one special person" said. But I will state some details.
Mahirap mawalan ng kaibigan. Lalo na kung yung kaibigan mong to, best friend mo na, sobrang close niyo pa, at isang araw sasabihin sa yo na layuan mo siya. Ayaw ko pero kailangan. Pero it doesn't mean na gusto kong layuan ka or sunud-sunuran ako at agree ako sa reason bakit ako pinapalayo. Una, eto na yung pinakakinatatakutan ko. Yung day na akalain ng iba na may "SOMETHING" tayo. Yung tipong akala nila, wala na tayo sa friendzone. Sabi sa akin ni Sir Jeff, "Masyado ka mabilis magpaapekto sa tao. Wag ganun. Masama yan. At eto pa, ONCE NA NAHANAP MO NA YUNG TRUE FRIEND MO, WAG MONG PAPAKAWALAN." Yun yung ginawa natin. We stayed together araw-araw. Naalala mo pa nung kinakausap natin si sir Jeff? Sabi natin, natatakot tayo na baka umabot sa teachers na lagi tayo magkasama at mag-isip sila ng iba? Eto na yun. JACKPOT DRE. TAMANG-TAMA. Dumating na nga sa point na kinausap na ako at yun nga, layuan kita. Nangyari yun kahapon. Nung dapat pupunta tayo kay Sir Jeff para sabihin na tutulong tayo sa steps sa cheerdance, Pero naisip ko na baka lalong maghinala yung mga teachers sa atin, wala nga tayong tinatago, pero hindi madaling magdeny sa taong hindi ka lubusang kilala. Kaya nauna ka ng pumasok sa Nook. Sakto naman na habang naghihintay ako sa labas ng nook, lumabas si Sir (Adviser) natin. Kinausap niya ako ng masinsinan. Una akala ko joke joke lang. Pero naging seryoso siya. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Akala ko nga nun paiyak na ako. After naman umalis ni sir, lumabas ka ng nook at nakasmile ka parin. Sabi mo, tara na. Namumutla ako nun. Naiiyak ako. Pero di ko pa nasasabi sayo. Instead, sinabi ko na lang "mauna ka na." Nawala ka sa paningin ko nun. Ang daming tao. Parang feeling ko nakatayo ako sa taas ng globe tapos lahat ng tao nagsisiksikan sa daan kung saan ka papunta. Sa wakas nakita kita sa baba. Kasama natin sila Ate Pam. Natutulala ako tapos ikaw nakikipag-usap ka kay Juan Mig ata? Then nagkaroon ako ng chance na sabihin sayo na layuan kita because of the reason nga. Heto na naman. Nagdadabog tayo. Pero wala tayong magagawa. We know what will happen. Kaya minabuti natin na layuan muna yung isa't isa. Kahit na alam natin na best friends lang tayo, wala eh.

"Mahirap pakawalan or layuan ang isang tao para lang sa maling dahilan. Lalo na kung napakahalaga niya na sa buhay mo."


You will always be my BESPREN. Kahit anong mangyari, lagi lang ako nandito. Hayaan mo na kapag bumalik ung pagiging loner ko ah. It's none of your business naman na..di mo naman to kasalanan. Maging happy ka muna in your own. Tapos when things calm down, kakain tayo ng maraming maraming double dutch ice cream. Maglalaro tayo sa Tom's World. Kasama natin sila Rainne, Dreff, Ate Pam, Sir Jeff, Teacher Rizza, Jeanne, at yung iba pa. Tapos magvivideoke tayo sa Quantum. Tapos icecelebrate natin yung best friend day natin sa 17 diba? Tapos babawi ako sa mga kasalanan ko sayo. Pero mangyayari lang pala yun kapag naintindihan na tayo ng mga tao :) after 3 years dre. Promise ko yan.